I don't want to be thinking this

I am starting to freak out that Eva's lil brother will decide to follow in her steps and come on the, say, 26th. You know, the day between Xmas and our family party. And because of this, and the feeling that he is a freaking GIANT, that I am feeling tempted to ask about the "I" word. The thing I said I would never ever do again. And I won't. At least I won't do pitocin again. But maybe some membrane stripping couldn't hurt. Sigh. I hate feeling impatient. But at least I am not being impatient and ITCHY this time.